"How can a man stay focused on life when all he sees is death? I can't get it out of my head that sending Allan and Garnett with Leggett got them killed, If they've just been with me... Fuck! If they've just been with me, maybe they'd still be alive maybe I could have saved them!... Maybe."
January 1, 1970
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