"I dealt with pain by causing pain. No, no... Ex that out. It is a ridiculous notion. That personal pain causes one man to injure another... To protect Germany. An act of self defense. To punish the German nation for undermining my charisma. To guarantee my singular place in history. To take their breath away... The broad-sweeping historical gesture. As the dream of conquest faded, the SS needed a new mission to sustain vitality. To brand the German people with this crime for all time. To add my chapter to the history of the chosen people. Their eternity is my eternity. My final enigmatic act. My postwar surprise to the world."