"I wasn’t going to talk about it because I didn’t want to let anybody know how deeply unhealthy things were because then they would tell me I have to leave the relationship. I wanted to find a way to fight and stay so I just kept it in. [...] The irony is that my relationship ended at the same time that those guys sort of gave up, per se. I’m not blaming them, but the solution occurred at the same time that they felt like they no longer were — they didn’t want to stick around because they felt like there was no solution. [...] I think that’s a criticism that’s warranted because I’ve had plenty of opportunities to take a step back and heal from that, but I never wanted to talk about it. [...] Twelve years ago is when I was arrested, and in the last 12 years I maybe acknowledged that loss once or twice."