"The last day I ever saw poor dear Charles Gordon, the day he left England never to return, he told me he mentioned three men in his daily prayers, and that one of those three was me. He was an old and valued friend, but I always felt, and more than ever feel now, that I was never worthy to pipe-clay his belt for him."
January 1, 1970
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