Mexican Americans

"I feel that books choose me when they’re ready. I can’t force them into being."

"(“Mexican Daughter” has been banned in a few places. Do you feel if your book has been banned, you’ve actually done something right?) A: I think a lot of people who are upset about these books haven’t read any of them. They’ve just been fed all of these lies that they just perpetuate. I would really like to know, what was it that was so offensive? The mention of abortion, the mention of drugs? I guess people have a problem with that. But I think what people really have a problem with is the title. Because we’re not supposed to take up space. And our stories haven’t been allowed into the mainstream until now and so people are mad that their kids are going to be reading about some ‘hood, Mexican chick in Chicago, It’s so silly to me...It’s very upsetting that they’re so afraid of new ideas and the truth that they hide these texts, hide information to keep this lie going of what the world is."

"Poetry is kind of a constant in my life and so that’s something that just won’t ever change because poetry is what allows me to write the prose that I do."

"A lot of people asked: Why did you start with your vagina? Because I don’t think it’s nasty."

"I talk about a lot of the things that I talked about in the book in class: I’m always discussing mental health. I’m discussing racism, all the “isms.” I just want them to have information and to have choices because I felt like I didn’t have a lot of choices myself."

"We all see different versions of the same thing. I have written the truest book I was capable of creating. It's the way I've always made sense of the world and my life."

"I consider Toni Morrison the patron saint of my writing. To write with her level of honesty and clarity is my North Star. Virginia Woolf is referenced in this book again and again, both for her work and for her tragic life, which, I suppose, are one and the same. Sor Juana Inés de la Cruz became a model for my rebellion. And the list goes on and on. None of my books could have been written without these extraordinary authors. I'm indebted to all the women who came before, those who paved the way as well as those whose talents were extinguished, buried, or sublimated because the world was afraid of their strength. It's thanks to their rebellions, big and small, that I get to lead this extraordinary life-that is, a life completely of my choosing. I am myself in a world that pressures me to be otherwise, a world that doesn't love me, wasn't for me."

"I grew up thinking I didn't matter, that no one cared what I had to say. The world didn't see me, a daughter of working-class Mexican immigrants, and what it did see, it considered disposable, inconsequential. I rarely found portrayals of anyone like me-bookish and poor and surly and Brown-in the art that I enjoyed. I searched everywhere for a model for the life I wanted, but found few. I wanted to be a writer and travel around the world, but I had no idea how I was going to make that happen. I saw only snippets of that kind of life here and there. Texts like the poetry of Sandra Cisneros were a lifeline. Here was a Mexican girl from Chicago who'd become a writer and traveled alone through Europe. But texts like hers were rare finds for me, because, it seemed, I was the only one in my immediate vicinity looking for them. My teachers didn't often teach books by people of color, and I didn't have mentors or access to the internet, which was rudimentary at that time. The libraries in my community were so limited and hostile toward children that I began stealing books from the bookstore. Today, of course, I know that there were other books out there at the time that spoke to who I was, but they didn't make it into my hands very often. So when no template existed, I did what Lucille Clifton wrote about in her poem "won't you celebrate with me" and made it up."

"(Which subjects do you wish more authors would write about?) Money. White authors often write about money (or don’t) in a way that disregards the realities of most people. It’s as if they assume that everyone simply has it. Or at least their readers. I remember reading “Fear of Flying,” by Erica Jong, many years ago, for instance, and getting very angry when the protagonist went to Europe for months with no concern for money or a job. I assumed she was relying on family money, but it was never explained. It took me out of the text because I couldn’t get over it. Maybe it’s because I grew up working class and money was a factor in everything we did. Marginalized people could never in their wildest dreams make these kinds of choices. That’s why I always write about the financial realities of my characters. I don’t expect everyone to assume what they are. Those details really matter to me."

"Kids really do see through our bull and have shorter attention spans."

"the world ended in an alley for a thirteen year old Mexican-American boy when a raging white cop pulled his pistol out and shot this child with both hands raised dead but the ears cut off by the police propaganda office manufactured a different story about the horror committed by a white man with a badge. when the boy was chased into the alley he felt it could be his final breath and the world made in the image of the cop would not call it murder. Adam Toledo died once in that alley and we have died more than a thousand times in the last year at the hands of men and women who don't give a shit about Black and Brown lives. mothers are begging for their children, our night sweats leave us drenched and there is no escaping the hell that carves its initials on our dark backs! fuck, the least I can do is never let your white world forget its sin!"

"The shooting of Adam Toledo is more controversial and nuanced. The thirteen-year-old - whose gang nickname was apparently "L'il Homicide - had fired a gun that he was still holding when the police confronted him and his twenty one-year-old accomplice in a dark alley. Toledo threw his gun behind a fence, but it is unclear whether Officer Stillman knew he was no longer armed when he pulled the trigger less than a second after Toledo threw his gun behind the fence, out of the view of the officer."

"Adam's death rapidly became a site of contestation. Community residents, politicians, political pundits, and others expressed personal conjectures on the events that transpired on 29 March. On one end, people vilified him and his family, going as far as blaming Adam for his own death, alleging that the murder by police officer Eric Stillman was justified. On the other end, there were clear attempts at rejecting the stigmatized narrative of victim blaming, and a push for police accountability in the form of an eventual abolition of the Chicago Police Department (CPD) ensued by young people, which called for a defunding of the city's police department and a reinvestment of funds into neighborhoods that have historically experienced gun violence, including from police."

"The footage shows a young boy, Adam Toledo, standing unarmed in an alleyway with a recently discarded handgun on the ground. Officer Stillman rushes to Adam and screams "show me your fucking hands," and Adam immediately thrusts his empty hands into the air in compliance .838 milliseconds (about five-sixths of a second) after Stillman shouted his demand, Stillman shot and killed Adam."

"Toledo appeared to raise his hands right before Stillman fired one shot and then ran to the boy as he fell to the ground. "Shots fired, shots fired. Get an ambulance over here now," the police officer was heard saying in the video. "Stay with me, stay with me," Stillman said. "Somebody bring the medical kit now!" The Chicago Police Department said immediately following the incident that Toledo had a gun in his hand. The gun had been dropped long before Stillman shot Toledo, after Toledo had put his hands into the air... Toledo complied with Officer Stillman's orders, dropped his weapon and turned around, hands up, before the officer opened fire."

"The generals hate holidays. Others shoot up to chase the sun blues away. Another store front church is open. Sea of neon lights. A boxer, his shadow fights. Soldier tired and sailor broken. Winter's asleep at my window. Cold wind waits at my door. She asks me up to her place but I won't be down anymore."

"The moon is hanging in the purple sky. The baby's sleeping while its mother sighs. Talking about the rich folks: rich folks have the same jokes and they park in basic places. The priest is preaching from a shallow grave. He counts his money then he paints you saved. Talking to the young folks: young folks share the same jokes but they'd meet in older places."

"My pocket don't drive me fast, my mother treats me slow, my statue's got a concrete heart but you're the coldest bitch I know. In the factory that you call your mind: graveyard thoughts of stone. A master thief, I wouldn't enter there, you've nothing I would care to own (so help me)."

"And you measure for wealth by the things you can hold and you measure for love by the sweet things you're told and you live in the past of a dream that you're in and your selfishness is your cardinal sin. And you want to be held with highest regard. It delights you so much if he's trying so hard. And you're trying to conceal your ordinary way with a smile or a shrug or some stolen cliché. But don't you understand? And don't you look about? I'm trying to take nothing from you so why should you act so put out, for me?"

"Now you sit there thinking. Feeling insecure. The mocking court gesture claims there is no proven cure. Go back to your chamber, your eyes upon the wall. 'Cos you got no one to listen, you got no one to call. And you think I'm curious. Drifting, drowning in a purple sea of doubt you wanna hear she loves you but the words don't fit the mouth. You're a loser, a rebel-a-cause-without. But don't think me callous."

"I wonder how many times you've been had. And I wonder how many plans have gone bad. I wonder how many times you had sex? And I wonder do you know who'll be next? I wonder. I wonder. Wonder, I do. I wonder about the love you can't find. And I wonder about the loneliness that's mine. I wonder how much going have you got? And I wonder about your friends that are not. I wonder. I wonder. Wonder I do."

"Just a song we shared, I'll hear brings memories back, when you were here of your smile, your easy laughter, of your kiss. Those moments after. I think of you and think of you and think of you."

"Going down a dirty inner city side road, I plotted. Madness passed me by, she smiled Hi. I nodded. Looked up as the sky began to cry; she shot it. Met a girl from Dearborn early six o'clock this morn: a cold fact. Asked about her bag. "Suburbia's such a drag, won't go back, 'cause Papa don't allow no new ideas here, and now he sees the news, but the picture's not too clear.""

"And I'll forget about the girl that said no. Then I'll tell who I want where to go. And I'll forget about your lies and deceit and your attempts to be so discreet. Maybe today, yeah, I'll slip away. And you can keep your symbols of success. Then I'll pursue my own happiness. And you can keep your clocks and routines. Then I'll go mend all my shattered dreams. Maybe today, yeah, I'll slip away."

"Woman, please be gone. You've stayed here much too long. Don't you wish that you could cry? Don't you wish I would die? Seamy seesaw kids. Child-women on the skids. The dust will choke you blind. The lust will choke your mind. I kiss the floor, one kick, no more. The pig and hose have set me free. I've tasted Hate Street's hanging tree. I've tasted Hate Street's hanging tree."

"But thanks for your time. Then you can thank me for mine. And after that's said, forget it. Don't be inane, there's no one to blame: no reason why you should stay here and lie to me. Don't say any more, just walk out the door, I'll get along fine. You'll see."

"Was it a huntsman or a player that made you pay the cost that now assumes relaxed positions And prostitutes your loss? Were you tortured by your own thirst in those pleasures that you seek that made you Tom the Curious; that makes you James the Weak? And you claim you've got something going, something you call unique, but I've seen your self-pity showing as the tears rolled down your cheeks."

"'Cause I lost my job two weeks before Christmas. And I talked to Jesus at the sewer and the Pope said it was none of his God-damned business. While the rain drank champagne, my Estonian archangel came and got me wasted. 'Cause the sweetest kiss I ever got is the one I've never tasted. Oh, but they'll take their bonus pay to Molly McDonald. Neon lady, beauty is that which obeys, is bought or borrowed."

"I've played every kind of gig there is to play now. I've played faggot bars, hooker bars, motor cycle funerals, in opera houses, concert halls, halfway houses. Well, I found that in all these places that I've played all the people that I've played for are the same people. So if you'll listen, maybe you'll see someone you know in this song. A most disgusting song."

"Born in the troubled city in rock and roll USA in the shadow of the tallest building, I vowed I would break away. Listened to the Sunday actors but all they would ever say: That you can't get away from it. No you can't get away. No you can't get away from it. No you can't get away."

"Don't sit and wait. Don't sit and dream. Put on a smile, go find a scene. I'm sure you'd meet someone who would really love you. Don't sit and hope. Don't sit and pine. If you've been hurt make up your mind. I'm sure you'd find someone who would really love you."

"The Mayor hides the crime rate. Council woman hesitates. Public gets irate but forgets the vote date. Weatherman complaining "Predicted sun. It's raining." Everyone's protesting. Boyfriend keeps suggesting you're not like all of the rest. Garbage ain't collected. Women ain't protected. Politicians using people they're abusing. The mafia's getting bigger, like pollution in the river and you tell me that this is where it's at."

"Sugar Man, won't you hurry 'cause I'm tired of these scenes. For a blue coin, won't you bring back all those colors to my dreams? Silver magic ships, you carry jumpers, coke, sweet Mary Jane. Sugar Man met a false friend on a lonely dusty road. Lost my heart. When I found it it had turned to dead black coal."

"Street boy, you've been out too long. Street boy, ain't you got enough sense to go home? Street boy, you're gonna end up alone. You need some love and understanding, not that dead end life you're planning, street boy."

"I’m running for mayor of the city of Chicago because Chicago needs to go in a different direction. For the past four years, we’ve seen Mayor Emanuel arrive in town with a boatload of money, impose his policies on the people of the city of Chicago. They favored a select few in Chicago. Through the amassing of large sums of money, he thought he could get re-elected, while leaving behind Chicago neighborhoods, making Chicago a city that leads the nation in the number of school closings—almost 50—and making Chicago, at the same time, one of the most violent cities in the country. We’ve experienced in the past four years 10,000 shootings, for example. So people in the neighborhoods feel left behind. They have come together, supported me for mayor. We’ve forced him into a runoff by building a coalition that is truly multiracial, multiethnic, across faith and across geography in Chicago. We’re fighting back against the agenda that was imposed on Chicago, and we want some attention and resources and investment in Chicago neighborhoods."

"We have to reduce our terrible violence in many of the neighborhoods in Chicago. Ten thousand shootings over the past four years is intolerable. We need a mayor who will be about the neighborhoods, who will have the disposition, the willingness to sit with neighborhood residents, who will be receptive to the need for mental health services in many of the neighborhoods in the city of Chicago. So, a mayor who is really in tune with ordinary people, with Chicago neighborhoods and with working people in Chicago is what residents in Chicago have said they want."

"Chicago is now at the forefront of a national debate about how you govern. Do you continue to let the powerful interests run your city, or do citizens fight back, unite and demonstrate that they can have a voice, they can chart a new course that is inclusive of the interests of all the people of Chicago?"

"To learn what makes us go, there’s no place you wouldn’t go, from the beaches of San Juan to the mountains of Mexico. And now that you’ve gone, we, the people, vow to stay strong. The unity of our coalition is a tribute to the Washington tradition. Today, today in '87, we know that you're in heaven. Adiós, amigo. Adiós."

"There’s another issue in the school system, which is standardized tests. Teachers focus so much time and energy in teaching students how to pass tests that they’re not able to educate them. So our students are overtested and undereducated."

"What we’ve seen in Chicago is a policy of inequality, a lack of equity. You have some parts of the city that have really good public schools, other parts of the city that don’t have the resources that you need to have successful education occurring. Those schools happen to be located in some of the poorest neighborhoods in Chicago. And, of course, the schools that were closed in Chicago are primarily in low-income areas that are predominately African-American and Latino."

"We have something to say to all those big corporations and special interests who spent all those millions to install their own mayor: We want change!"

"As a lesbian, seeing Fermilab make such a visible and intentional stand for LGBTQIA+ physicists, technicians, and engineers at the lab is just another way of fostering an inclusive work environment."

"The secrets of our universe don't discriminate, these secrets can and should be unraveled by all those who wish to embark on that journey, and my aim is to clear as many barriers and leave these physics spaces better than I entered them."

"Many of us who are underrepresented in STEM have taken on the responsibility of spearheading institutional change toward more just, equitable, and inclusive working environments as a form of survival, I'm putting in more work on top of the research I do because I recognize that I do better research if I feel supported and if I feel like I can bring my whole self to my job. My hope is that one day Black and brown women and gender-queer folks interested in science can pursue just that and not have to fight for their right to be a scientist or defend that they are worthy of doing science."

"Once I got to college and took my first college-level course, I knew that physics was what I wanted to study. I learned about quantum superposition and Schrodinger's cat. It blew my mind, and as they say, the rest is history!"

"That number is still so jarring to me. I found out that there were only about 150 black women with a PhD in physics while in graduate school. I was on the verge of quitting. I was having such a hard time keeping up with my studies and just belonging. I was the only black, Latina, and lesbian in my classes. I stood out like a sore thumb, and I felt isolated. I also didn't feel a sense of belonging at the university or city level. The micro-aggressions I encountered, not only in the classroom but going to the mall or getting groceries, were so exhausting!"

"To me, community outreach has two major benefits: to promote scientific literacy and the importance of physics research, and to foster a curiosity and passion for physics. One of the many barriers I've encountered in my decades worth of outreach experience is the lack of trust society has towards physicists. This in part has to do with the lack of diversity in physics. There have been many instances in history where scientists have used a biased view of science as a tool of oppression, racism, and sexism. By including a more diverse cross-section of the population in physics studies, the public interest and trust in physics and physicists will increase as well. That's why I believe community outreach and increasing diversity in physics are symbiotic. By focusing efforts on outreach, especially to underrepresented minorities, you foster excitement in physics that leads to a future of diverse physicists that can then better encompass the interests of society as a whole, which in turn makes community outreach more accessible to a diverse population."

"While to a certain extent, I do agree that organizations will thrive with a more diverse workforce due to the difference in experience and the ways in which we all think, we not only have to focus efforts on recruitment but also retention, and to do the latter, there needs to be a cultural shift at the organizational level."

"You learn as you go, and I think the most important thing to remember is that you are not your failures. That was a hard pill for me to swallow and something I'm still working through but the scientific process is built on failing! We have a theory, we test it, and a lot of the times that theory is wrong. That doesn't mean you aren't smart or you shouldn't continue testing other theories! Scientific exploration would come to a screeching halt if at every failed theory a scientist would quit."

"For me, physics isn't physics without outreach."