"Even he [Gautama Buddha] was allowed a worldly existence until he was 29. But since the age of five I’ve been disciplined to live like Buddha after he renounced the world. Why? How do we know that his enlightenment was not a direct result of his worldly existence too? Apo, where is that freedom promised to me after a strict monastic discipline? Where is the promised satisfaction from our vows of celibacy? “You should not accept my teachings on hearsay unless and until you understand them from your own point of view,” he said once. There are things we must unlearn in order to learn them. And there are things we must own in order to renounce them."